Loosing a Friend Still Hurts

I remember finding a old t-shirt of my best friend in my home after weeks had gone by. Did I make the right decision by telling him who I really was, inside. When my fear finally came to light, it hurt to see it really happen. There had been no fight, no misunderstanding, no drifting apart.

I owed him the truth about myself, or at least that's what I believed then. At the time, he said this truth would not change our friendship between us. whether it was a lie, or just something people say when they want to run from something they cannot handle. Would I have acted they same way towards him. That's something I won't be able to answer until the day comes around.

I would hope not. He would share how he was falling in love with Tammy. How their relationship made his mom proud. How the family also fell in love with her. And how they both went through their pregnancy scare together and when they sought out my advice. My memories of then, loosing a good, and trusted friend over my decision to be honest about our friendship.

Going from being his adopted older brother, to a third son of his mom, and jealous over Tammy all at the same time. Even though my feelings for this friendship had been close. I never thought of Keith in any other way than a brother!. Hiking, climbing trails, swimming in he creek with the other friends. I finally realized all I lost when I smelled his old t-shirt. Breathing in hard, trying to burn his order into into my soul. Some ten years after, I looked up one day and saw his face at my job. I froze. he was still so handsome, and didn't run away from me. I was so confused.

My hurt still lives in my heart, his smell still lives on my soul. How important is the "cause" to lose a golden friendship. Or should I have planned to have him find me with another in my bed? Would that have been easier?

What happens to friendship when?

What we all want is health relationship with someone we can trust with our lives and bank accounts? But what happens when one or both wants to call it quits? What happens to the bank accounts? The mortgages?

It just seems that since one would feel the need to leave the relationship and the home that was built for two? One can't think for one second that everything suddenly belongs to the one that stayed, can one?

What do you do with someone who refuses to talk about selling the assets that both have made over the life of the relationship. It enough to drive both crazy. In certain situations both feel that both are correct in the motives, and actions. How can we not?

But sometimes the need for lawyers to become the mediators because when it's suggected that we start thinking about the future, it's time to talk about reconciliation, or not. What can we do if counseling is not even agreed upon?

Enough time (18 months) and enough tears one would hope on both sides have been shed. Just how do we bring to close 15 years after all is said?

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Nikki's Trip to Doctor Duple

She knew where she was going when we turned into driveway. And after getting out of the car, she planned on taking me for a walk back out of the driveway. I needed to convince her to go into the door. She needed to walk onto the scale. 37.5 pounds, she gained 2 pounds from her last visit.

Nikki had blood drawn. It was obvious that it hurt her when she tried to pull away, but it was quick and she did well. All the tests came back good. There is a cyst on her hind leg, but there was hardly any fluid to anylize. So Dr. Duple said not to worry but she'll keep an eye on it.

Nikki does have dry skin, so she now will be using special shampoo to help ease the itching. Nikki also has yeast infection in both ears. The Dr. showed me how to use the medicine to wash out Nikki's ears. All said and done she is in great health, and still a very happy baby. She will need to have her teeth clean by December.

My First visit to the Foot Doctor

Dr.Dia McCaughan, Someone who made me feel real comfortable on my visit. She took tim eto talk to me, something I found amazing that a professional today's world to not make a patient feel "At Home"

Diabetes, what a bitch!

Tuesday, I went to a consultation fro my diabetes. And the instructor informed me that myy insolin has a self life (once opened) of 28 days. Possible reason why my blood sugars goes wacky every 45 to 60 days. Since I never knew I needed to throw out sometimes as much as a half bottle because I simply haven't used it fast enough.

Carbohydrates; is another word I learned about. Everything a person eats turns into carbs. The trick is learning how much insolin to give yourself vs. how much carbs you will be eating. Next month the diabetes classes will start. There I will learn from a diatian on how to do the latter.

Until then. Keep informed...

Nikki

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